I don’t really ask for much, just this one thing. Please let me stay so that we can work together to make things better again. I love you so much.

Ugh, you piss me off so much. I wanted to do something, I even asked you before you already made plans, and you forget? This is why I don’t ask to make plans with you, you forget in less than 20 hours and go do other shit with your friends.

I don’t know anything about myself anymore. I can’t tell the difference between sadness or anger or jealousy. Sadly I don’t even pity my own self. I feel like this is a punishment and I deserve it. I’m too uptight, too possessive, and too demanding. I am ungrateful and repulsive to those that care for me. To anyone I come around, I disappoint them. I make it to the point where no one wants to be around me unless they have to. I don’t like many people easily. I’m too quick to judge. I’m impatient. I’m vulgar.

I wish to change. I want to be a better person. I want to be happy with my life, but I always wind down the same path, at least that’s what I can assume.

Is there help for me?
Is there hope for me?

I’m not suicidal, I’m not mentally ill. I’m just so lost.

Can someone please help me find myself so I could be happy once again?

I don’t want to go somewhere and start all over again, because I never really started here. Please let me stay, I don’t want to be alone.